Nada Lagerstrom

I

like eels
eyes walking

the skull
the birds
the tides

but He
takes one
to sustain
the Earth
and collapse
its brains

but He
visibly present
found us
proclaiming
other way

and never
even
sitting
to smoke

one becomes
world of being:
all soul

II

all soul
world of being
but He
found us sitting
eyes walking
the skull
the birds
the tides
like eels
but he
proclaiming its brains
to sustain
and collapse
the earth
even takes one
to smoke
one becomes
visibly present
and never other way
III
one becomes all soul
visibly present
world of being
and never other way

but He
takes one
even to smoke
the earth, the birds, the tides

but He
found us proclaiming the skull
its brains sitting

like eels eyes walking

Nada Lagerstrom

Decision

Falling in love with my suffering insides,
Shattered shrapnels of noise showering the ground.
Regret, reproach, doubt, final sacrifice,
Giant frozen snowflakes falling with no sound.

Agony encrusted with joy and delight
Trusting it scares. Breathing wheezes away.
My secretive smile, my retreat sweet and might
It’s mine, only mine, and I decide to stay.

Whiplashed by a deafening, yet silent wave
My suffering insides lying on the ground.
Sigh and shrug. And first step. Forward from the cave.
And the giant snowflakes falling with no sound.